For Nothing is Impossible with God

This title is found in Luke 1:37. Mary was visited and told that she was going to give birth to a son, named Jesus. She doubted as anyone would; being a virgin but responded in 1:38: “I am the Lord’s servant,” Mary answered. “May it be to me as you have said.”

I think this could be the “Because I said so” of ALL comebacks. “But mom, how can I be an NBA player at 5’4”?” ….For nothing is impossible with God. “How can I go on the missions trip with the high school class when I have to raise so much money?”….For nothing is impossible with God. Or… my personal favorite; “Why should they talk to me after I messed up their teen and adult lives?” And  the angel says…. For nothing is impossible with God. (And the angel would be right).

I have mentioned our strained relationships in previous entries but could not be more dumbfounded by this scripture today. Let me begin by sharing the string of text messages I received just last night…setting the stage. I am sitting on the couch watching TV with mom and redesigning my website when, out of nowhere, the chorus to Chris Tomlin’s “Indescribable” rings through my cell phone.

Daughter #2: I love you. =)

Me: Awww…. I love you too. Are you okay?

Daughter #2: Yeah…I’m fine. Just thinking about coming home to visit and missing you. I haven’t said that enough lately. So… I love you. =P

Me: Thank you. That means a lot to me. I am looking forward to a family holiday too. Not a lot of presents but lots of love and family time. Fireplace, movies, baked goodies, and sledding.

Daughter #2: Sounds awesome.  I hang out with (Daughter #1) and work with Dad, but that’s it. I miss family time. =)

Me: Definite back to basics and spending quality time together. It will be great.

Daughter #2: That’s all I want. I need a break from Wisconsin anyway.

Me: Great. Everyone can just be kids again. We all had to grow up too fast this year. It will be nice to go back in time for a bit. A time out from real life will be just what we ALL need.

Daughter #2: I’m really looking forward to it. There’s nowhere else I’d rather be for Christmas doing exactly that.

Me: Awesome. Me too. I love you. Thank you for letting me back in your life. It means more than you know.

Daughter #2: Thanks for being there for me. I’m sorry I ever made you feel like you weren’t part of my life. =/

Me: It’s okay. I know I pushed you girls away. Just praying that I can make it up to you in some way but I know it will come in God’s time. I never could have imagined all that has happened this past year. Some good…some bad, but all for His purpose. I am grateful for it all.

Daughter #2: Well, I’m glad you’re coming home soon. I feel like I haven’t seen you in a long long time.

Me: It has been too long. I saw you a year ago for just ten minutes.

Daughter #2: I’m sorry I didn’t visit more often. That will change now that I know how quickly life can be taken away. You have to take advantage of the time you have with loved ones while you still can.

Me: I couldn’t agree with you more. =D

Where this would be a somewhat typical texting dialogue for many; it is truly a miracle for me…and I don’t say that lightly. Two years ago we weren’t speaking and up until a month ago, we barely texted or interacted. God is working in amazing ways. Just like my mom had to have faith that He was with me even when she wasn’t…I prayed for my daughters that weren’t interested in having a relationship with me.

People that mean a lot to me told me that my daughters would want to see me again. I had one out of three and was thankful for her every day; trying not to think about all the wrong I did with the other two but always hopeful. I could not be happier to tell my friends the news of another homecoming for Christmas this year. I am elated to have them tell me “I told you so” and was never more thrilled to be wrong, in my life. It is no coincidence that one of the friends that was so confident it would come true has a favorite scripture in Matthew 19:26 “Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

I have said it before and will say it again…Faith is not believing God can but knowing He will.

I wish I could say I was patient and had faith in him that this was possible for me, but even though I am truly the President of the Jesus Fan Club; a part of me still felt that the reason two of my girls weren’t reaching out to me was because of things I had done in my past. I still felt I was being punished for decisions I made. But, in having this turn of events happen for our family…I realize that it was never about me but in them.

The ball really was in their court and I still have one daughter left to return the serve.